Touch Me While I Taste You

My name is May Snow, and Im eighteen years old. Please dont let my gentle and alluring name fool you; Im not a delicate lady. The day before I drowned, I was on my usual street, leading a group of ruffians to snatch the wallet of a wealthy man who seemed to be on a secret rendezvous with his mistress. As they hurriedly covered themselves, we scattered around the huge SUV, yelling and running off.

Then, as calmly as could be, I divided the spoils with my gang, and with my share of the money, I bought a T-shirt for Hoze, the handsome guy Ive grown up with. Yes, Ive had a crush on Hoze, who looks harmless , and he has completely captivated my heart. Every time I got my hands on him, I used the guise of bullying and teasing to get close to him. The direct consequence was that Hoze didnt see me as a woman but as a buddy, bro-ing me with his arm around my shoulder. The most humiliating part was when he tasked me, Mei Xue, with delivering a special express鈥攍ipstick鈥攖o his newly kissed girlfriend!

My strong, almost rough heart didnt know what it meant to be hurt. I handed over the lipstick to my rival with a smile. Unfortunately, I ended up drowning.

The direct cause of my glorious sacrifice was still for the man I secretly loved, Hoze. He stood on the bridge, fueled by alcohol, facing the strong wind, and shouted at me, "Xiao Xue! Life is so tiring! I dont want to live anymore! My girlfriend dumped me! She threw the lipstick I gave her into the sewer and told me to get lost! She said Im a fatherless, motherless stray, and shes going to find her own happiness! Xiao Xue, I dont want to live anymore! This is the 101st time Ive been abandoned! Ive lost all faith in women! Goodbye, Xiao Xue, youre my good buddy!"

"Hey, you silly boy! What nonsense are you talking about? If she doesnt want you, I do!" I wanted to grab his face and tell him that I am a woman! A good woman who has coveted him for many years!

But Hoze looked at me pitifully, letting the wind blow his clothes noisily, "Alas, whats the use of you wanting me when youre not even a woman... Im disappointed, Im desperate about this world, I dont want to be this worlds fatherless, motherless poor creature anymore!"

I almost went mad with anger. Where am I not a woman? Just because Im a bit too thin, lacking the S-shape I should have, just because Im sharp-tongued and always looking for a bargain, just because Im articulate and relentless when I have the upper hand... At least I have my special time every month, and I wear a little bra in the summer.

"Hoze! Being orphans is not something to be ashamed of! Dont mope around for those stinky women!"

"Orphans! Why is my life so bitter, unwanted since birth? Ugh, Xiao Xue, are we such unlucky orphans because we committed some great sin in our past lives?" Hoze still cried like when he was a child, getting beaten and bullied, snuffling and wiping his nose, retreating towards the edge of the bridge.

I knew he was timid, always a soft and easily bullied character, always being chased and beaten by a group of little troublemakers, and every time it was me, the female hero May Snow, who came to his rescue. It was always me, May Snow, who took the delicious things I snatched, tricked, stole, or earned, and placed them in his dirty palm, then said domineeringly and generously, "Eat it, little Hoze!" Maybe it was then that I learned to protect him and got used to it. This habit has been maintained for more than ten years, and it has made Hoze completely overlook my gender.

Alas, what a sorrow.

"Hoze, dont be silly! The world is so beautiful, and theres so much money waiting for us to earn, and so many fools waiting for us to deceive. Dont be sentimental, come to your sisters side quickly, lets go hate the birds startled by the flowers. Today your crying act is a bit too much, its too long, I have no patience."

I waved to him.

Hoze was very obedient, thought for a moment, and immediately nodded, "Oh."

He wanted to end a love story as usual, hugging my waist after crying from a breakup, but this time, God probably was tired of his game.

He stepped on a stone, lost his balance, and tilted straight down from the bridge.

"Ah! Help, Xiao Xue! Save me!" His body was hanging in mid-air, casting a hopeful gaze at me.

"Hoze!" I screamed, jumped over, grabbed the railing with one hand, and with the other hand, firmly grasped his hand in the air. To this day, I am still proud of this high-difficulty action; I actually managed to grab his hand accurately during his fall.

The little guys hand was so cold! I was still feeling sorry for him at that time.

But the next second, I realized that things were very bad, very unfavorable to us. I pulled too hard and actually tore the reinforced concrete bridge railing, this was not heaven killing me!

The bridge railing was swinging in the air with my body, and my body was also flying off the bridge following the inertia. This was in slow motion.

At the critical moment, I still used all my strength and threw Hoze up.

As he went up, it was the time I was thrown down.